I’ve received “Extreme Isolation” noise blocking headphones, which by themselves don’t do much to help my problem. I am wearing silicone ear plugs with the headphones and the combination doesn’t block out enough. I swear its like I hear through my nose or something. I have been playing popular music, but that is also distracting. I’ve tried white noise and that is annoying.
Some days I don’t have to use the noise blocking very much, if at all. But some days, even the slightest thing sends me into a freak-out. Like today. Its not like a panic attack, I don’t think. Its just that the noise level and different conversations and sounds all crash in at once and create an overload I suppose. Like kicking a nest of hornets in my head. I can’t concentrate, I can’t think and all I want to do is yell, “Shut Up!” over and over and over again. I don’t… very often, but I want to really bad. When I put on the headphones and play music and I can still hear people talking its like, “What the #&*@** are you doing? Why the &*#& do you have to talk that &@#&# loud?? I have on noise blocking headphones and loud music and I can STILL hear you! WTF!?!?” Turns out, its just me.
I have found a couple solutions that I am enjoying. What I am doing now is I have the silicone earplugs, the noise cancelling headphones and listening to some calming music from http://www.purple-planet.com/#/royalty-free-music-calm and listening to http://www.rainymood.com/ at the same time. This is helping to drown out most conversation…. yes, still not all. I am concerned that turning the music up any more will hurt my hearing, LOL!!
I am going to get evaluated on the 8th to find out WHY I am like this. It think that I am about to be diagnosed with Asperger’s or CAPD or something like that. In fact, some people have told me that I have to be ‘on the autism spectrum’ somewhere – people who have autistic kids or siblings.
Update: I never did get tested. Insurance doesn’t cover the testing, so I am fairly screwed. Dealing with whatever this is that makes me so different from most other people really, really sucks sometimes.